So... I was a fast little girl.

SO ... I was a FAST little girl.
Sep 1, 2008 8:29 pm
I had had almost every sexual experience before my fourteenth birthday. That said, I was such a DRAMA QUEEN. JESUS CHRIST, I would cry... at the drop of a hat ... there was ALWAYS something wrong with Little Red. She was not a happy girl. She had been 'taken' too young, lost her innocence too fast, some by her choice, some not. I realize as an adult, that I made some very adult decisions at too young an age. I always looked older, was treated older and more maturely, so that is how I behaved. When I became sexually active (at 13), I wanted to know everything there was to know. I wanted to make sure I was never taken off guard by any terminology, slang or otherwise. It helped that I was involved in the theater, because it put me in touch with some unscrupulous adults ... who think they are doing a kid a favor by telling her about all sorts of sexual games, they've played. I learned a lot from my time in the theater, and became very good at reading people too. Some people might wonder about my family... what did they think, did they know... honestly, I don't know. But, I wasn't drinking or doing drugs, so it didn't matter I suppose. I always wanted to know everything, so I read. ANd asked questions. And since the internet was just beginning at this time ... when I went to a friend's house that had internet ... I read some more, watched porn when I could get a hold of it, and put myself out there ... as generally 'easy' .... I'm gonna put out.So I hooked up as much as I could ... with whomever I could. Which wasn't often for a chubby, red head, with giant boobs, and a chip on her shoulder. High school boys were afraid of me, I'm convinced. I was a snob. I'll have to blog about it sometime... but I had a wild night at 15 with some college boys ... that if they had stopped to ask my age ... wouldn't have touched me for fear of statutory rape charges. Anyway.... I still had the psycho boyfriend, so it was like that here and there until I said goodbye for good.